I have been thinking about turning this into a private blog. I'd rather share my thoughts with a few select friends and family. If you are one of those people send me a comment or email so I will put you on the V.I.P. list. Will probably create another blog specifically for my writing, this one started out that way but turned into something else entirely.
On a side note, I have been thinking a lot about Karma lately. Does it really pay to be a good person or just not get caught? Sometimes I wonder how many people I pass by on the street that are murderers or cheaters or thieves that got away with it. Will they one day lose it all or be caught? There are some people that can do immoral things and not even bat an eye about it. Fortunately I am not one of them. Even on my worst days when I feel like tripping a starving orphan or taking money out of the homeless man's cup, I stop myself. I don't just stop myself because I am fearful some unforeseen consequence may or may not come back to me tenfold. No, I let little Timmy hobble pass me and refrain from taking old Sunshine Bill's drinking money because I know it won't really make me feel better, and I'm just not a douchebag. As much as I wish I were, I am not related to Kanye West.
On the flip of that thought I also DO feel the need to good when the time presents itself. I also wish I wasn't capable of such feats, but alas I am. Now where does Karma fit in to all of this? I still have no idea, in fact I am probably further from the answer now than I was when I started this post.
I think the deed itself is the payment. Ive done crap and 'not got caught' but the lingering feeling of being a bad person or that youve done some wrong will eat away at you from the inside out, regardless of an external source catching you in the act. for every crime theres punishment, sooner or later, no matter how invisible. plus it just feels a whole lot better to do good, and exist from a place of love and understanding rather than fear and bitterness : )
ReplyDeleteBe the change!
btw, sinner vs saint garbage is just that. humans make mistakes, errors, and are perfectly imperfect. lessons are around to be learned from. judge yourself not by bad experiences and past malfeasances, everyday can be a new start. stealing a few times doesnt make one a thief anymore than digging a few holes and scattering seeds makes one a gardener.
~your sista! weee!